Get me out of this place, where I can finally escape. The stress, fatigue & internal battle that I’ve been struggling with almost everyday since the end of last year finally overcame my mental willpower on Monday, and my body totally broke down. Couldn’t breathe properly, heart was pumping crazy fast, dizziness, felt like puking, couldn’t speak, couldn’t stand properly & my hands were shaking. I never want to feel this way again.

Must have had over 50+ pills over the last 2 days - including vitamins, sleeping pills, antibiotics, stress-relief medication, can’t be any good for my body but I couldn’t feel any better without them. Slept the last 2 days away doing nothing & trying to forget everything else around me that I have to do & worry about, but I still don’t feel well. Granted better than Monday, but still.

I still need a long, long break away from everything. But sadly that’s quite impossible. I wish everyone could understand what I’m going through behind this happy, smiley front.

Working towards my only goal in life now, which is to keep my daddy healthy & make him as happy as he can possibly be.